3 day entry?

March 22: I have come to realize how the older I become, the more I embrace my feminine side. I'm not sure if it is a maturity type of thing, where girls "grow up" and begin to wear make up and dress more...dressy showy. Perhaps not in that way, since the girls these days look as if they are well beyond their years. Which in other words mean they begin to dress more...well.

I believe that the females of this generation are too anxious to grow up faster, not mature faster, grow up faster. There is an enormous gap of difference between maturity of a person and the physical maturity of a person. I am hoping not to lean towards that latter option, although I am physically maturing...at an extremely slow rate.

11:07 am March 23: I was recently getting lost in my thoughts again. Actually not completely. While I was reading my devotions, the thought that came to mind is: when people always ask, "why is life so full of drama, and issues, and problems with ourselves? Why can't life just be perfect?" If life were perfect, we wouldn't need God at all, why would there even be any kind of god? We would be perfectly fine on our own. But we need Him because we are not perfect. He created us to go to Him and love Him.

Sometimes the most difficult questions, or what we believe to be difficult questions, aren't really all that difficult. It just never comes to mind that the simplest things are the answers to the most difficult questions. Simple. Ha.
As a prone to over-thinking person, I often view things in a higher difficulty level than they truly are. As a matter of fact, I have a struggle with taking tests such as math which involves lengthy and useless equations. I often catch myself making a problem even more difficult for myself by believing the the problem presented to me is of high difficulty, just because of the magnitude of the numbers, or perhaps just the size and the symbols. And quite often, I find myself quite mind boggling, difficult, hand to understand. I just don't get how anyone would be able to even grasp the meaning of what I say on a daily basis. And as I ramble on my jumbled thoughts at 11 pm at night, I realize that it has taken me 3 days just to write one blog post. Oh boy.